A New Chair. How special am I?

Got a new chair at work today. It's really nice. Made out of mesh. Very cool and breezy. I'm still so full from lunch. They had Bar B Q in the kitchen today. Super yummy. I think I'm good for the rest of the day. Today is my dad's birthday. We will probably spend the evening at my parent's house. Gonna miss our SOCOM scrimmage today. Oh well. What can you do. I am looking forward to lounging around tomorrow though. Super cool.

Tired...

Lately, I've been feeling so tired. Guess cause I've been going to sleep so late every night. I usually go to bed late anyway, but I guess since I'm working and not just relaxing, it's taking a bit of a toll on me than usual. I shouldn't have taken so many projects on at one time. Guess I really don't have anyone else to blame but myself. Have some logo designs and photo shoots that need to get done.

I have also decided that I will do away with my photography business and just keep it as a hobby/personal thing. Just don't have time to deal with that and a graphic design business at the same time. I need to concentrate on one thing alone.

Open For Life has ruined my life.

That's sort of a small joke we have going on in our office. The church is almost done building a brand new, beautiful addition to their campus. A new family center. This place is amazing. I could sit here and describe it to you, but it's better seen in person. On September 7th , you will have that opportunity. That's the opening day for this new facility. Now, why do we say it has ruined our life? Well, not literally. It's just a joke, cause the CC team has been busting a little bit of tail to get a lot of the projects that go with this grand opening done. We've stayed till 11pm one night last week, and it seems as if these next few days left, it will be more late nighters. So that's where the joke stems from. On the plus side, I work with some awesome people, so it's not like it's torture. Although, I would rather be at home with my wife, then to be working late. I mean, I really like my job a lot, but there's a limit. I love being at home and resting as well. Well, I'm crossing my fingers that we won't have to stay late everyday, especially Friday. I mean, who wants to stay that late at work on a Friday?

Not a good start....

So today, I was supposed to kick off working out again. I missed all of last week due to a busy work schedule and a lot of personal events happening. Not good. Especially since the eating didn't stop for a week as well. So, today I get home and I'm a little tired and I'm getting undressed from my work clothes (Try not to get a mental picture of that. Not a pretty picture.) and I'm sitting on my bed thinking, "Man, I really don't feel like running outside right now". So I come in to the living room and I ask my wife, Erin, if she will be working out today. She responds, "no". And I'm like, "Why not?". She's usually the good one about these things. So she responds, "Cause I don't feel like it." Wow, she became that brief moment's hero. So, I decided that I wouldn't go outside. I didn't second guess it then, but now I'm thinking about it. I'm not going to be able to lose the weight that I want to, if I keep having days like this. Oh well. Maybe I'll do a few crunches or something. Just to take a bit of the guilt away. This lazy kid is signing out. God bless.

I am a FAILURE

You know, being a Christian is not easy. In fact, it's impossible. Well, impossible without the grace of God. Sometimes I look in the mirror and I think to myself, "Why does God continue to love me?". What is it that he sees in me? I sure don't see it. I think about the bad things I've done, said, seen and heard in the past, and I just think to myself, "Yuck". Even now, that I have become so much closer to Christ and learned more and more about the word of God, I still fail. I fail, and I fail and I fail. But yet, God continues to be there. Never, NOT ONCE has he ever failed me. NOT ONE TIME. And yet, he continues to seek me. That is something that I will truly never grasp. I mean, even a parent's love has a limit at some far point. I'm so glad that our salvation is not how close we are to walking like Christ here on this earth, cause God knows I wouldn't be on that list. We are truly blessed that he has sent his ONLY SON to die for us. If it were not for that, my fate would have been sealed in a whole different envelope.

The God of Sex

That's the title of the book I'm currently reading. Now before you go on close this out, hear me out. Even though I've only read through the first chapter, I know what the book is really about. It talks about how some churches totally avoid the subject of "SEX" and some try to brush it off. That reminds me of what some parents do. This is where we all make the mistake. Let me tell you something, sex is all around us. And it's only getting worse. The youth of today will be exposed to it, no matter how much you don't want it to happen, it will. I was in middle school when I first got exposed to the topic. We learned it in health class and of course you hear the bad things coming from other students. Parents, teachers, ministers, pastors or whoever you are, please talk to your kids about sex. If you don't, someone else will beat you to it, and it may not be the right teachings. Even in the bible it talks about sex and how it is a good thing that GOD created for the proper reasons and to be shared with the proper person. But if we keep avoiding the subject, who's going to teach the youth this? Someone you probably don't want to, that's who. Think about it.

Blah, blah, blog.

Wow, it's been some time now since I've even written here. Not that there hasn't been anything to write about, because believe me, there's been plenty to blog about. So much has been going on in my life. One of the bigger things is work. I've been so stressed out at work, it's really starting to get to me. Not just in frustration or stress, but literally my health. When I was younger, I had a similar problem and to be honest, when I went to see some doctors they told me straight up, "either you stop stressing or you'll end up in a hospital". I took their advice and chose to stop with all the stressing. Well, just recently, I started feeling those pains again. Anyway, long story short, either something has to change at work, or I'm really going to have to start looking in another direction. I guess I could go in to a lot of details regarding with what's happening at work, but I'd rather not, cause to be honest, just thinking about work just gets me all depressed. It's Sunday, late and I don't even want to go to bed right now, cause I know by the time I barely close my eyes it'll be morning and time to go to work. Not fun. On top of that, my truck has been giving me problems. We've already shelled up a lot of money to a mechanic, and it's still making a noise. But you know what, as much as all of this is just getting to me, there are a lot of other things that are just going so well for me in life. My family, my friends, my marriage. It's all been so blessed. I could sit here and keep fretting about what's bad, but sometimes, it really helps to think about the good in life as well. Sort of a balance. I wish I could focus more on the positive than the negative, but it doesn't help when most of my day is spent at work. I guess all I can do right now is wait. See what happens. See what God has in store with me. I guess I'll watch one more episode of Friday Night Lights, and I think I'll call it a night.